My beautiful Isaac,
Tears, tears, tears. Two months ago
today, I held you for the first time. I so want to hold you today.
Every day. Kiss your adorable little lips. Look into your beautiful
blue eyes. Behold your smiles. Listen to your little baby sounds
that I never got to hear. Hear your laughter. Your name-- it means
laughter. That is part of your identity-- who you are; God gave us your name, and I
can only imagine the laughter that will one day burst out of you!
Yes, one day, we will laugh together. For eternity, we'll laugh. This
short stint this side of heaven feels like an eternity right now, but
one day, we'll really have eternity.
Your daddy. Your brothers. We all feel
the void of your absence. I think it's our nature to want a way out
of grief; it's no fun being sad. (That's an understatement!) Maybe that's human nature. Or maybe
it's really that God made us for more. So much more than the
“shadowed” life we live here, splattered with separation,
sadness, sorrow. Yet, there's always a cup half-full for every cup half-empty. (Yes, this takes intentionality. Discipline. To remember. To choose to SEE.) By God's grace, amidst the shadowed lands of the present, there are glimpses of the Kingdom all around us. Your three amazing brothers that daddy and I (with God's help!) are raising. Breath-taking creation all around us this fall. Trees in a million shades, rich with depth and texture. Signs of the Kingdom in the rich ethnic diversity around us. The body of Christ functioning beautifully. Similar stories of God's overwhelming faithfulness to others who are living the same storm in which we're living. These signs--- they give us hope.
Tonight, we'll be remembering you. And we'll be defiantly worshipping the King, laughing, and enjoying the community of a few amazing friends as we remember God's faithfulness and nearness-- especially in the greatest storms of life.
Tonight, we'll be remembering you. And we'll be defiantly worshipping the King, laughing, and enjoying the community of a few amazing friends as we remember God's faithfulness and nearness-- especially in the greatest storms of life.
Isaac Joseph, I love you.
You have marked us all, and we're closer to the King because of you.
Missing you today and always.
Love you to the moon and back,
Mommy
Mommy
"Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the LORD'S great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness." Lamentations 3:21-23
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